Well, it’s been more than a minute. The briefest of updates.
March: I made a new connection and learned SO much. I’m so thankful they were brave enough to reach out to me. It felt so much better to know I was not alone. Not crazy. But it was a lot to process, not knowing whether what I experienced or was told was real or fake. Lies or truths. Having to sit with it all. It was the beginning to find peace with that period of my life because I knew I was no longer crazy. I finally was able to begin to put so much aside.
April & May were track. Processing and yet not processing. Lots of hard memories coming up. Getting lost inside my mind a lot. Feeling stuck at times.
June was regrouping. Realizing there is more to my story than I’ve ever admitted to myself. But I’m not afraid of it anymore. I am not in a rush to make it not exist. To push it out of my mind. But I’m really ready for something new. Fresh experiences. New awakenings.
And this is the processing of letting go.
I’m better off than I’ve been in a very long time. The road ahead of me is big and weird and winding.
I’m excited and ready. I’m scared and anxious.
I’m ready to see who I may become.
